MOON FLOWERS BOOK AND FAIRY TALES --- THIS SHOULD BE A FLICKR

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 THIS LAST ONE --- KRISTIAN AND I DOWNTOWN

Occasionally, one of us, a select one of the millions will stop, turn around, and really think. They will go within and search the crevices of their innermost, trying to rip and rid and strip themselves of all the ritual and customs and ideas implanted into their brains by the world outside of themselves. What do I want? 

 These people do incredibly spontaneous things – like wake up one morning and decide it’s time to leave – quitting an incredibly successful job and leaving behind everything they have as comfort – to venture into the world unknown – the world they want to create for themselves – into a world that gives them deep, real, perfect, human happiness. “No wonder the world is so angry”, my friend proclaims because now she knows how it feels to graduate college. Now you get a job, working full time, 9-5, coming home to take care of the baby, eat dinner, go to bed, and repeat that same thing day after day after day.

I want to live deliberately. A deliberate life of focus, where I know as fact what I love, what I want, and everything I do, every move I make has a deep purpose and satisfies me into my soul. 

Deliberation to find my deliberate life. What do I love? What makes me happy? A quest of myself I am happy to make now before life has gotten too complicated and too many chains have been locked.

photo via Igor&Andre

We are coming into a very big moment in history.
Something Called a CARDINAL GRAND CROSS:
(I have made a collage of the GRAND NEWS with a campaign in VELVET Magazine)

"the fast-approaching cardinal grand cross that is being formed by the social and transpersonal planets (jupiter, saturn, uranus and pluto) is something astrologers have been talking about for YEARS!
i recall an astrologer friend telling me that when he was 18 back in the 60's and began studying astrology his peers- who were older women- looked at him and said 'oh you will be alive in 2010 when that grand cross happens!'
this ain't no run of the mill astrology- what is in the works is huge.

"jupiter is the planet of expansion, abundance and growth.
he expands whatever he touches- sometimes to the point of overdoing things. jupiter is currently conjunct uranus- the planet of awakening, liberation, sudden change and rebellion.
uranus is like an electrical current- when you are going through uranus transits your whole system is electrified. add in jupiter and you have the electricity multiplied.
this can be felt in the atmosphere- people just itching to break free, make change, leave their entire past behind. both of these bodies are in the warrior sign of aries- which is awakening everyone's will, drive, passion, assertiveness and anger.

"those sweet, considerate types who never lashed out in anger- something is waking up inside of them and they aren't willing to take anymore. those firey, impulsive types are finding that their fire and impulsivity is getting a bit out of hand.
and those angry, aggressive types are only getting more angry and aggressive. the best use of this energy is to
wake up the warrior within and fight the battles you need to fight with consciousness.


"now opposite the jupiter/uranus conjunction in aries we have saturn in libra full swing (as of july 21st), where he will stay for the next 2+ years. with saturn opposite this jupiter/uranus conjunction we have the planet of contraction opposing the planets of expansion and liberation. saturn is all about reality, convention and structure while jupiter and uranus are all about ideals, visions, and the breaking of the status quo. with saturn approaching the aries point in libra (0 libra) the area of life that is getting hit the most is in relationships (libra is the sign of relationship).


"jupiter/uranus in aries demand freedom, assertiveness and independence, while saturn soon to be in libra again demands maturity, responsibility and commitment in relationships. uranus wants to bring life back to what has gone dead- so relationships that are stuck in old paradigm behavior will either have to transform and awaken to new levels of expression or they will have to be let go of. this plays out within the psyche in a profound balancing of masculine and feminine energy (aries and libra). finding the balance within is a precursor to finding it without. whatever dramas you find playing out in your life right now are a mirror for your own inner imbalance. now is the time to see the reflection and make the necessary changes.

"now to add fuel to the fire (really, really potent fuel) pluto in capricorn is in the mix- squaring the saturn opposition to jupiter/uranus, creating something called a t-square. pluto is the lord of the underworld and he is very, very powerful. his goal is to unearth and reveal shadow.he is the great transformer, but that transformation does not come easy.it comes by way of death and rebirth- a dying to the ways of ego and a rebirthing into the ways of Spirit/Soul.

"pluto squaring these two makes this grand cross powerful, intense, and potentially destructive.
often destruction is the means for transformation. most people don't make changes in their lives until things get really, really bad.
how many times have you or those you know stayed in jobs/relationships/situations that are toxic, unhealthy, or stagnant way beyond their expiration date?
people like comfort, security, and the known. change is often uncomfortable, unstable, insecure and foreign. when pluto comes in we are forced to look at the shadow of our relationships, life choices, and most importantly of the self within.
the best thing to do with pluto and any of the other heavy hitter planets when they arrive, is to consciously work with their energy.
when we are unconscious they come into our lives and turn things upside down. when we are conscious we can actually assist them in deconstructing/transforming our lives and we can find a sense of empowerment in choosing what is happening as opposed to feeling like it is just happening to us.

"no doubt there will be some powerful external manifestations of this grand cross- but it is important to remember that what happens without is merely a reflection of the collective and personal psyche within.
if a war were to break out it would be good to see where we are still warring with ourselves, our loved ones, our neighbors, etc...
if a massive natural disaster hits it would be good to see where in our own lives things have gotten so bad we need a total shake up in order to wake up.
everything is a mirror.
when you see life that way it can be quite the learning experience!"

-WRITTEN BY IN HARMONY ASTROLOGY

My hands are cold, icy cold
sometimes.
And I don’t realize it
until Im out of the water, until Ive crawled up out of the hole of the frozen lake and walked across the mist to my fireplace.
His heart is always burning,
and I don’t realize Im not even feeling
until it comes over me like a gust of wind later when Im all alone. I cant defrost around you.
I can only melt these hard walls once Ive sat alone long enough by myself. Not thinking of anything in particular. Just feeling. And maneuvering through the tales
the wind provides,
as I ride, up, down,
this way, to that side.
Ide ask you to ,but Im afraid you might actually do
it, peel the flakey old layers, like paint of off walls,
so that they do not encompass my heart. So my organ responsible for embracing and holding another can jump,
and not sit like a statue on my mantle, crowing
it’s eyebrows and scuffing
at everyone who sits down below.

-c. 2010 emily clibourn

The romance in subtlety

Is more beautiful and is full

Of greater life than

Anything really living

Caressing the blanket

Of reality that is

Time and space and

All majesty

As colors collide and

Rub in my perspective while

Nuance of noise comes

Off the wings of a bug

Only to be realized when

Really awake to see the

Moment present in front

Of you, the subtleties

Cold, blank breathe

Like water to my tongue

Fills up in me

Is bright water in my lungs

And stark white skies

are water to my sight

pouring pouring pouring

in, like an eternal faucet

if only it weren’t so

hard to be seen with

the poignancy that I see

everything surrounding me

Deep, deep, I want

To know

You deep, let me

See into your well

Of goodness and

Everything scary

Let me know you

So you

Can get to

Know me

The doors to

My world are wide

Big thick strong wooden

Doors-

Collide

Your big strong fists into

The

My universe, I invite

C. 2010 Clibourn

"...choose to believe in your own myth
your own glamor
your own spell
a young woman who does this
(even if she is just pretending)
has everything...."


"Just like any woman...
we weave our stories out of our bodies.
Some of us through our children,
or our art;
some do it just by living.
It's all the same."




-Francesca Lia Block

J'adore Le Random

My computer is turning into a Grandpa, and Im wondering how much longer until he chokes. Cane in hand, taking so so so long to upload these pictures.
Cannot wait for an Apple.

please please please press on the photos to view them larger. merci.

My paradise was lost
The day I gave myself away
To the noises of the cymbals
And stopped walking in slow motion

Seeing with fast eyes
The world around me
As a flash, a reflection of me
Instead of what it desires to be

C.2010 Clibourn

"Harlem"
Langston Hughes

What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore-
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over-
Like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags
Like a heavy load.

Or does it explode?

Vertiphon by Artist:Bola on Album:Fyuti

If I were to fly

You would leave me

You need me dead baby

So you wont be lonely

c.2010 Clibourn

photos via ilovewildfox

This will be me when I go traveling

Oh my love

With you I drift away

Oh my love

With you I drift away

Via Knightcat

Im going to put these lyrics to music:

We sail on clouds

Of red and blue

And the wind on which we travel

Baby it sparkles like you

And Ide like to ask

Where my love are we going

Yo a far wawy land you say

A far far away palce

Oh my love

With you I drift away

Oh my love

With you I drift away

Neither hurricanes nor tornados

Can stop us now

Not the internal battles even

That so easily get in between

We just run through

Through the walls and the wind

Into the feilds of wide open

Wide open love

Oh my love

With you I drift away

Oh my love

With you I drift away

c. 2010 E. Clibourn

baby i want a tulip for my turnip,
then maybe we can burn it,
burn baby burn burn
the fire thats already been burnin

hot hot my brother, hot hot


i told you ive been rhyming,
well rapping and tapping more like,
cause when i make these things up,
its like its like an umbrella, im away.

damn, hold on, shit,
the frictions lifting,
shifting,
nope, now were falling.

oops sorry


c.2010 Clibourn

"I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself,
than be crowded on a velvet cushion."
-Thoreau

Wisdom Ripens Into Silence

"Wisdom ripens into silence

When she grows more truly wise,

And she wears a mellow silence

In her heart and eyes.

Wisdom ripens into silence,

And the lesson she does teach

Is that life is more than language,

And thought is more than speech."

Listen!

Listen!

By V. Mayakovsky

Listen

If the stars are lit

it means-there is someone who needs it.

It means-someone wants it to be,

that someone deemed those specks of spit

magnificient.

I will be

Trust me.
But most importantly, trust yourself.
I pull a cigarette upon my lips to take a swift drag of its puffy, white smoke.
I am a child still, in as much as I obtain the worst of their traits.
Confusion, bewilderment;
stunned in a state of painful inability to control things.
When do I realize what I want? Tell me, father, does anybody ever figure it out?
Or is this life always a wind
of surging moments
that cannot be predicted or brought out of concealment?

I have this dream.

It is a place within green meadows. Where the sky is dark and heavy;
holding the oceans within them.
It is a place where I always look perfect in disorder; where I dress up
for the endearment of nobody;
I am fancy because I am fancy. With fur coats, and knitted sweaters,
and beautiful, silk shirts and dresses. In my home there are flowers,
tall stems and red petals which don’t wither for many weeks.
There are chandeliers and a room specially devote for writing.
Here, there exists no world other then this one. I am not
consumed with expectations and phone calls and errands.
The greatest task of my day is waking up before nine and
attending the garden before the rain hits.
Here I have sheep with fur a foot deep and they roam the wild frontier
that hasn’t been touched by modernization.
I peer far into the distance and can see the shore line,
and the endless horizon of dark blue. My fantasy consists
of action; focused action; writing and creating; designing and envisioning;
color and shape and form and the senses.
The rain washes over me and I hear it as I fall asleep.
It is a simple life.
It is a life of solitude and care,
femininity and devotion;
focus and beauty; creation and care.
Delight in the simple things;
awareness. It is a life of love and I love. Then I love.
Nothing is surrounding me. Nothing suffocates me.
It is a place of wide, open, vast space.

C.2009 Emily Clibourn

Designer Stolen Girlfriends Club.
Photos by FashionToast.com